Honey. You are truly one of one. Envy is real. Family is not always the family you need. I know. Your special in a way they can't understand. You have real feelings. People are on auto pilot. This world is worse than ever. You have to see those things that make you different as a blessing. That's your sparkle. I live that every day. I am so complex and throw out your expectations of others. You have nothing to prove to them. Don't let them dull your sparkle. It's yours. All you awesome qualities and even the bad. I promise you that I make mistakes everyday. We have to in order to learn and God will help but he will test you. I almost died again 2 weeks ago. I'm still here. He our lord our father said not yet my journey and trials and tribulations are far from over. Take those small moments of satisfaction, when you did do the right things even when you're told you didn't. You are in charge of you. Grab your Raines and let the proverbial horse help you begin your new life. I will tell you in the Bible their is a thing called dying to self. You are truly their. Meaning stop. Regroup, rearrange your life. Make positive decisions and future goals and let the past go. Begin a new. Stop self sabotaging. Stop allowing others to use your heart as a door mat and realize you are not the issue, circumstances are and they change, so will you. Your confidence and trust in self will begin to grow and you will start to understand who you are and why. We all have something that is a true gift from God. That is the goal and the secret to life is finding a way to use that to help others in this life. Don't be them, they are scared of truth. You have to see them for what they are. You are not a bad person to leave toxic people in your past. When you die to self its like hitting the reset button. It is not easy and you will make mistakes constantly just keep yourself open to positive criticism. Talk to God. I just thanked him in such a terrible time because the good things in life overpower the bad. And the bad is more often than not in my life. Be real and give yourself a break. We are all just trying to make it. To whoever whatever why ever, we are lost. I'm lost because their is no way to know the future and fearing it is a waste of time and energy. Take time to fine those things within yourself that are true, real and feel that blessing. You are truly a blessing. We all are and please acknowledge that. You deserve to know you have worth. You are it. You can't be replaced and flossy I'd give you the biggest hug because you have what it takes. Just reaching out is such an incredible ability. I love you sis. Thank you for being you. Please know we all want more for you and you surely deserve it. Always with much love and blessings 💋jo

No Flossy you truly are a beautiful soul and God loves you. I pray that you get through this adversity soon and that you heal and become happy.💕