Today God, I come before you stiil humbled and in awe for all the grace you have shown me throughout my life despite myself. Today you told me to be patient, to not rush life and let things come as they are meant to. That is a virtue that the trauma took away. I struggle with control and patience. Which both inhibit my trust in you. Show me the way. Its difficult being a human with so much anger, hate, judgment, disparity, classism and greed. Its difficult to stand alone. Cleanse the earth. Teach the masses unity and love. If we are to get through those two things will be the only way to survive what is coming.