I thank you all for your words of wisdom.. Guess all my life from a child, I been begging for someone to love me unconditionally.. I give repeatedly and get heart breaks in return from childhood to 50 years old. I'm so torn.. I actually prayed for a companion in 2014-2015 after my first marriage didnot work. I cspecified what I was asking God for... about 11 months later DeAndre appeared 7 out of 9 on my list, I said Thank you God... but its been filled with fake joy fake love and a lot of reality of distrust disloyalty and than I prayed bless me to change God and bless us to get married have him stop his infidelity and I be dang if I'm still living with the same disbelief.. I'm speechless...please continue to pray I have strength to walk away and never turn back.