Its hard to say goodbye and not blame ourselves but its a part of growing. No matter what you say or do those thoughts will overpower all and any positive ones you try to tell yourself or even subconsciously know but its a process of shock, loss and healing. Time will heal both of you and one day he will understand how life works. We all learn everyday single day of our lives. Some days are a little more harsh. You both loved her but I bet she very happy she is again with your father and just as you are feeling horrible for him seeing that she felt a burden on you. Nothing ever ends nicely or it would never end. I pray for the heart of you both and the pain it is taking right now. God needs us all one day. Hers just happened to be now. If you were home the situation wouldn't of been able to be her time. It was meant this way. Not to hurt you. It was just her time.

Thank you.