I am praying for you and I for this. Confusion is the word I use when I can't figure out and have patience with my faith. I know he is there and can hear me and after all this time...I should trust in him completely. But I have been waiting and waiting and it doesn't seem to help. There is a lot of us waiting and trying to keep the faith while God builds our answers to our prayers. The tears are just part of it. Hold on. He is coming with your blessing. I know I am. Amen.