I have always wondered whether I have joined the wrong church. I seemed so out of place as there was no one in leadership I could find trustworthy enough, not judgemental or understanding enough to whom I can be transparent with. They also seemed to have this issue of talking about people rather than talking directly to them. Due to this, I kind of draw a line with them and imagine myself like Paul going to the Gentiles,comforting myself No prophet is honoured in his own hometown. Consequently, I guess I do have more outside friends who know me better. I know it's really not healthy for me to continue like this. I need a real Christian spiritual mentor and I need a group of people especially Christian leaders who are for me, to encourage me, stretch me and uplift me to walk in the purpose of God. Please pray for me that God will lead me and give me the the place, people or things that I need to walk in His purpose.