I just found out that I need to have a hysterectomy. I’m scared. I’ve never had a surgery before. I don’t trust doctors. I don’t trust hospitals. I’m not even sure at times I trust God because I’ve had so many things happen in my life and I can’t figure out what I did to deserve them. I want to have trust, I think God is more than likely disappointed and probably angry with me. I do not want to die, I have grand-babies I would do anything to see grow up. The truth is I am scared to die. It’s been my fear since I was a child. I need God, I don’t know how to turn things over to him. I am not worthy I know that.

Please pray that this back pain goes away. I am so weak in faith and have the worst time trusting anything. I am scared. Thank you.

Praying my heart is okay. I am overweight and out of shape. I need to lose weight I know but it won't come off. I look at my grandson and just cry thinking if not be around to see him grow up. I'm sad, and feel like no one understands me. Just sad.