Beautiful,I know that you know what God has spoken to you but sometimes our brokenness and Bitterness consumes us and blinds us from The Truth. God loves you so much not to save you. If you want God's best, you need to go with God, no other way. Please don't go with your feelings, ask God for guidance. This is where the enemy attacks you, your heart, please study in this area, how to hear from God, prepare to be a wife, what to look for a spouse. I pray that God would heal you to receive The Truth and strengthen you more than your heart. 🙏