Unspoken prayer request

Sometimes I don't know if theres any hope for me

Lord Jesus Ill admit to you that I'm scared where I'll might be for eternity. Jesus it seems like I'm seeing prophecies fulfilling itself and I have alot of fixing up o have to do with my personal life and I'm still in sin. Jesus please have mercy on my soul and please take my worldly desire out of my heart so that I can serve you better. If the rapture happened today I can admit that I won't be ready.I know every single thing that we do on this earth is being recorded every action, thought and deed and if you brought up my list I don't think I would wanna see that. Lord Jesus please help me live righteously and please have mercy on me.