I laid in bed last night and could not goto sleep. Because of anger, hatred, against people who have hurt me so deeply in my past. But I was led to forgive them in my past by the Lord. So I did. But these things that some family members did to me, and some things so called friends did to me keep coming back to me. They whisper in my ear and start stirring my pot. They get me worked up, angry again, and it's an attack from the enemy I know. I laid in bed praying to the Lord to help me, to forgive me for my sins, to make these spirits get out of me and away from me. I laid in bed for a few hours last night praying that I forgive them, and that the Lord forgives me . Finally peace came upon me and I fell asleep. I woke up late and didn't make it to church. But I turned on Youtube and watched the livestream of my church service. So I was happy I still got to have church at home.
After church I read this. And the valley of the dry bones means alot to me, because that was me before the Lord saved me. Before he breathed life into me. But right now in my life I'm under attack day and night. The darkness is trying to consume me, it is almost to much to bare. But I'm trying my hardest and I am fighting, I am withstanding, and I am standing and not giving up. I know that the Holy Spirit comes and fortifies me.
The Lord is very important to me, along with my family, my church, and you Rev. John. So this afternoon I want to say I feel a release. I was like a pressure cooker ready to explode, but as I sit here in tears, now there is no more pressure built up, it's released from me, the Lord has touched my heart and my mind. It feels good, so thank you Jesus, and thank you Rev. John! Amen!