I am asking for help thru prayer, please, I am struggling to get my life in order, I want to kick this addiction and have a normal happy life. But its so hard and my circumstances make it even harder. I just need a little help im willing to do the work I just need a door opened. Please God help me help myself. Please dont punish me, I know Ive not always made the best decisions when u have clearly opened doors for me in the past. But I am here now, all of me open and seeking your love, guidance, and protection. I want to know u on a whole new level. I want to feel your freedom. Show me father... Please... And have mercy on me.