Mariska, trick is that you can be happy wherever you are. U have to pray, and it will be given to you. Trust me, u can be happy wherever you are, imagine you can go anywhere. Why would you be happier to be there. Its similar to running from problems, problems and happines are all around us. I often thougt that I will be happier elsewhere, especionally when I was mocked and sad, but trust me, happines is everywhere. You can find what you seek, u just need to be patient and pray. God loves you, I will pray for you.
Amen
God loves us all🙏🏻