I pray for God to renew and restrengthen my faith in Christ, others but mostly with myself. im lost and alone And feel like even when i doing my best. Its far from good enough. when im trying my hardest its never hard enough. I try to stay strong, positive and faithful. but every step i take im pushed 2 steps back. Love, understanding and support are things I only dream of. Ive been torn down so much i cant even find the self love i need to even lift my head let alone try to stand. I'm ready to give up. I can no longer see threw the tears and the pain screaming threw my mind and filling my heart. I/m so lost I can no longer find myself.