im having major worry about the one im with . i always have this thought in the back of my mind that hes cheating and i cant make it stop . i know i have trust issues and a very vivid imagination but cant i focus on something good and happy and positive instead of letting this eat away at me . we have been together for many years and through out the relationship the cheating thought bites me why why why cant i let myself trust this man ? why do constantly make things up in my head . Maybe im afraid of losing him ? maybe im afraid of being alone ? maybe i feel like i dont deserve happiness ? God i need your love and support , please hear my tiny voice amen .