I graduated just last week from college, and I'm trying my best to search for a job. I'm feeling very down now because compared to all of my friends, I've been rejected by so many internships, and I'm not even going to graduate school. I decided to take a year off, and my mom is just giving me such a hard time about it. I know she really worries about my future, and she just wants the best for me, but it just hurts when she compares me to my friends. It's not like I don't try in school, I try really hard. Because my family is not well off, I try to work part time and go to school at the same time. My gpa wasn't as great, but it's still above a 3.0 and I'm really trying my best to search for an internship. I have tried to be positive and cast all of my worries to God, and been trying to rest and find time to do things... But today my mom out of comparison with my other friends said that it was a waste of money for me to go to the University so far from home. I felt really hurt, really bitter, and really depressed again about the situation. I had a really hard childhood, I'm the person who always tries so hard just to be average, and the only thing I hold onto for hope is God. I just feel very useless at the moment and I just feel hopeless after my mom said that. I just pray for me to not take it so personally, forgive, and just pray that I could find a way out of this "helpless" feeling.

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