Dear God here I am AGAIN. You say keep faith, people say keep faith. I will admit I am having huge troubles doing this. :( I need you so much and I feel as though I am so very alone. Here it is real fast. My husband has had an affair that I can't seem to look past. My handicapped brother lives with us and on a daily basis he lies and steals. My 11 yr old son who is 11 thinks he is 30 and can say and do what every he wants. ( He is SLOWLY learning not true). I am angry all the time. My husband says I am selfish and think of no one but myself. ( Maybe if him and I had any kind of connection that is not negative he might realize my feelings and actions are because there is NOTHING between us). What else am I suppose to do? I think I have done everything everyone has wanted from me but yet I feel as though I am the dirt they walk on. How can one keep faith when you keep getting run into the ground? You know what I want. I want to start over. New house, my kids etc. You know what I want. I need not to feel so alone and usless. Please God help me find the ways. In God's name I pray.