Dear God, Here I am once again. I'm not even sure what to say or what kind of help to ask for. I have asked out right for things and that hasn't happened. I am sure I wasn't suppose to ask what I asked for and that is why I haven't gotten it. Well here I am asking for a miracle. My husband has put an altamative on our marriage and the big one, (well 2nd to big one) is that my handicapped brother has to move out. I have been doing research that last couple of days (I have a stress headache from it) and my brother and myself are trying to wrap our heads around it. Also with the other one is to get a job were I can make mass money ( I will never be able to make what my husband does) I understand why he insists on it but I have been a stay at home mom for 9 years and that is what I wish I could still do. I guess the miracle I am asking is that some how we can (yes, I am going to just ask) get some kind of devine help on winning the jackpot on either mega or powerball. I ask because I think that between me and my husband we have both said, made accusation to each other that I am not sure will ever be able to fix let alone forgive each other and I have to face the fact that I think my marriage is over. We want different things in life. He keeps saying he is 48 and doesn't "need" to ask permission to go and do what he wants. He is right! He had an emotional affair with another woman for about a year and I am suppose to let it go and not bring it up because according to him it wasn't
an affair. Well anyway I think we need time apart to figure out if we want to work on our marriage ( which I think I do, I am not sure) or say it is time to go our own ways. We have 2 children to consider in our decision. I have a very hard time with all of it. He sleeps on the couch every night (for at least the last year except Christmas Eve, because he knew the kids would be up early). I can not afford to move out and now that my brother has to move I lose that job so no money at all from me. I don't know what to do. HELP please. In God's name I pray.