Yesterday I decided to go to Dan's house to leave him a note just to say hello. I was shocked to see his SUV there,along with the van. I immediately thought of an email I got that said he was gonna have to find another job and that he had been sick. I thought that perhaps he had been sick but the more I thought of it, the more I thought that something had happened to his boss' dad and was told not to come in. After asking the Lord to give me strength and to soften his heart, I went to the door. Despite knocking (and hearing him move inside) he would not answer the door. Finally I started talking to him. I did not say anything about his job, but I wanted him to know that I was there when he was sick before and I would be there for him now.

I finally left, but I am still hoping for the best and that the Lord WILL soften Dan's heart and allow me back into his life. I told Dan we were not perfect and if we were, we wouldn't need God or anything else. I also told him that I still cared for him and loved him and that we are perfect for each other.

Please keep Dan and I in your prayers. I do not want to see him alone or lonely, and I don't want to be that way either. With God, I KNOW that anything is possible and the Lord will get us thru this!