Thank you for another morning that I get to wake up next to the love of my life, Farouk. I pray that this will be how I wake up for the rest of my life. Please pray that I will be able to save this relationship as I don't know what to to anymore. He has become distant and feels defeated and resorts to drinking and I can't seem to get through to him anymore. Last night for a brief second I saw a glimpse of the man I love, his old loving self when he hugged me and kissed me and told me "thank you for being the best". There I knew there is still hope to bring him back. Back to how we were, back to how life was simple and full of love. He threatens to leave me even though he loves me so much as he feels very conflicted. He is having issues with himself and fighting his demons and can't be with me at the same time. But I want to be there for him. I want to help him get through all this. And I know that most his conflicts comes from the fact that his family does not approve of our relationship. Even though he is the happiest with me and loves me, he can't ignore how his family feels about us as well and it breaks my heart to see him so conflicted. I want to be with him though it sounds selfish. I need him because I love him. And I want to win his family. I know they are good people, just lived lives different from my culture and religious practices.And I hope and pray that one day they will see that those differences don't have to matter. Love does, not your racial culture or religious practices. Please help me pray that we can get through all this and at the end of it all, me and Farouk would still be together and have much deeper understanding towards each other and deeper love and faithfulness as well. All relationships come with sacrifices and challenges, not just ours. Please give me the strength to continue to fight for us and may he see that despite all of the storms we are facing right now, he will see how much love I have for him and how much I didn't give up on him. Please touch his heart that he will not give up on me too. That he will remember all the good times we shared and the bad times we have surpassed together. May he find it in his heart that in times of trouble, you end the problem not the relationship. May his love for him guide him to me and stay with me and together we sort things out as we have always done before. With him, I have become a better person. I have learn to love someone other than myself. I've become more compassionate, loving, caring and kind. Without him I'd be in the darkness and only his light can save me. His love has brought me the serenity and peace I have been looking for. And though I have given him the same, this problem with his family has slowly turn that around. Please pray that after he comes back from visiting his family, everything between us will be okay and that we continue to be together and be able to love each other more. Build the life we once planned before and make good with out promise to each other to love and cherish one another always and forever. Please, pray that he will find his way back to me soon. May his love guide him back to me. Amen