Dearest Heavenly Father and Holy Family... yep, it is me AGAIN. I feel as I have become a constant nagging or tugging like the tiny gnats that circle my head when outside and I am hoping with all of my heart that you are not annoyed with me for constantly running to you about my son. Sometimes I feel as though you must be and I apologize for that but I am scared and do not know where else to turn, so I run to you and throw my arms around you while crying to ask you to take the pain away from my son who has been in constant horrible pain for a year now and is hanging on by only threads. He feels abandoned by his friends, his doctors, his coworkers and thinks that he has no reason to draw another painful breath. I know how very busy you are God, but I am on my knees asking for a break to his pain, if you cannot take it all away at this moment, perhaps take it down to where it is at least bearable without the need for painkillers. I would be most appreciative. I ask others that I do not even know for prayers as I have for the past year and I love and appreciate each and every one of those prayers offered up on Dan's behalf. I don't know how much longer he can hold on and work (40 +) hours a week with this level and still want to go on. This is breaking my heart. My son worries about how far behind he is falling financially and I keep telling him to let go of that worry as that is something we can all work on to help him through. All of this: the constant horrible pain, the work (and his workers telling him it is in his head to suck it up), the mounting bills keep rolling through his mind and he cannot sleep and has lost almost 50 pounds (he was never heavy) .. please give me the words to find to ask for mercy for him ... I feel inadequate and watching him like this is beyond my ability to put into words. I ask you to please, please reach down a hand in mercy and take away the pain .. and if you cannot do it completely at the moment, please take away as much as you can so he can handle this easier. He has held on for so long only because of you and his family, but he is tired, oh so tired.
Thank you Lord for allowing me to come to you and the compassionate and caring individuals who pray for him and please bless those individuals as well for their good deeds. Amen.