Please pray that I find peace in my life. I have always been a happy person, the one everyone always sees laughing. However that hasn't been me for over 3 months now.
My husband of 18 years (together 22) decided it was time to separate. It was completely unexpected. Sure we had problems but who doesn't after that long. I don't even know who I am anymore. I went from living with my parents to living with him. I went from a high school student to a wife.
I then find out that even though he isn't talking to me that he is still talking to people in my family and some of my friends. Although I guess after that long they can be considered his family too. Its just so hard. We also have a 17 yo son together and of course he talks to his dad so its not like I can just write him out of my life.
Its just so hard. I thought this was the man I was supposed to grow old with and now I scared I will be alone for ever. I am tired of all the crying I just want to be happy again.