Lord. I have sinned. I had an affair with a married man. I did it because he told me they were going to get divorced and I fell in love with him. But after that he felt guilty for cheating on his wife because she wanted him back all of a sudden when she found out that there was someone else. So he wanted to do the right thing and stay with her. I love him very much and I doubt I'll ever stop loving him. Since she treats him badly why can't I have him and treat him good? Lord I don't mean to be selfish, if there marriage is meant to be then I don't want to break up a happy home but it seems as if there home wasnt happy at all and he should leave her. Yes I want him for myself but of course God I want what's best for him. I feel bad about what I have done but I really do love him and I feel like that might be my cross to bare or maybe even a punishment for the major sin that I have committed. I'm sorry God. My heart hurts so bad I feel empty and just horrible. I really thought we would be together forever. I know I am stupid and ignored the signs that I was doing something wrong. I know I deserve to feel the pain. Lord please send me a miracle. Even though I know I don't deserve it. I know you've always forgiven me in the past especially when I don't realize how wrong I am being until it is too late. The pain is very very deep. I don't feel like doing anything. I don't feel like facing the world alone again after I found someone I truely love. Please help me lord. Amen