I have been battling with trying to understand why I was abused by my Mother and how the rest of my family followed her. My Mother has been dead for 3 years and my family still abuses me. I cannot seem to get over this abuse. I have be diagnosed with PTSD because of the abuse I sustained from childhood into adulthood. I can only turn to God and all of you because I believe in the power of prayer. I have been made to feel that I am unworthy of being alive. As you know abuser strip you of friends to keep you under their control and I am ashamed to say that I have no friends to lean on. Lord, please help me, I am so desperate for help. Please know that I have been in counseling but it does not help. The hurt and pain is so deeply embedded.