Im struggling with patience. I struggle with it bad. I feel like I am always on the cusp of knowing the things I want. I have to take some of it on faith. I feel am so close to the breakthrough. I dont know how much more suspense I can handle, but it doesn't make any difference. I have seen enough, I am addicted now. There is no going back to the way I was. The anticipation is just difficult to handle. I often wonder if I am too grandiose in my desires and beliefs. Could things really be as huge as I am thinking. Is that really the message I am getting? How much is just my fantasy? And can I even be trusted with the things I desire. I feel like I will explode. I am on the potters wheel in a new way, i know this is all going to end in joy. I dont like anything that feels bad, any suffering, but it is nothing compared to what Christ endured. I am just venting my thoughts. I know it's all good. God is good. All things in His time. Here is my prayer request.

Help me with realizing who I am meant to be, help me with peace in my struggle, help me with my loose tongue and my patience. Please increase my Faith. Forgive me for being so concerned with my struggles and my own desires when others suffer. Thank you Father. I pray in Jesus name.