please pray for me as i try to heal hurts i caused as i mother-- they are grown now and over all doing fairly ok but each have hard troubles that i can trace back to my not doing my level best and as sad as it makes me feel and fills me with sadness & regret... it's so much harder on them and their lives including the people around them i have to find a way to give them guidance, to help them see i messed up and they need to admit and grow workable habits and a change of perspective so they are happier and raise happier children who watch happier parents as role models to know they to can be free from the pain and dysfunction my children suffered.. please pray for them and for me- i need to get this ball rolling before i leave this earth and no tomorrows {no matter how hard you plan for them nor what you do to prepare no a single breath is to be expected- please - i've broached the subject and was promptly shut down be cause they either don't see how bad i was or they are blocking it mental but i still see they acting it out in their the subject and got shut down... i am feeling powerless and thank you for the prayers- it this is not the forum for this and i will remove..