Please pray God would take control of my life and change it for the better and have me get healthy and recover from an addiction to meth. Please pray God would calm my fears about gaining weight, and that God and the Holy Spirit would help me open up my heart and be able to recieve God's unconditional love for me. Please pray God would help me forgive everyone who hurt me in the past, especially Brad. Please pray God would save my soul and my life. I don't know how sick I really am, I have a meth addiction that I developed to cope with 20+ years of depression that doesn't respond to anything. I'm in a really really bad situation and to make a long story short, I grew up with conditional love. Anytime I really needed emotional support growing up, I had to try to comfort myself. I struggle to recieve any love because I've been given the message I'm unworthy so many times. That's also why I never reached out, and also I would embarrass my family. Please pray God would deliver me. I honestly don't know how much longer I can live like this. I don't want to die of an overdose or suicide but that is my fate most likely if God won't intervene.