I’m failing my classes and I’ve wanted to give up on education so many times. My family insists I graduate but it’s hard. Studying is hard for me I’m better at working and I don’t know what to do. I failed myself, my family, my lord so many times. I continuously fail and I have become lazy, depressed, lonely, anxious, self-hating, and worst of all I am unfaithful. I never talk about my grades to family because they are always doing better than me. In every way they are doing better. Relationships, friendships, being accepted, grades, good communication skills, no medical problems, no anxiety. If I tell them that I am also doing bad in school I will feel like nothing. I have no idea what to do. I don’t want to become a better student, I need God to help me become inspired to be a better student. I can’t learn if I remain lazy, sure I will get better grades but I need God to help me want to be better. This is one of the many weights I carry daily. It’s been more than 10 years since I ever felt like my old self. I fell in love and lost her and now I have nobody who depends on me. I don’t take care of myself because I have nobody who needs me to. Thanks 😔❤️❤️❤️