I am so numb an feel so lost and have for over 10 years and I can't figure out why. I lost my children and three years later found out that I had a massive brain tumor in May of 2011 the Doctor informed me it had been growing for over 15+ years. My son Neil showed up to the hospital a week later moved back home graduated and went on to college the a year an a half later died. I have been numb and lost ever since and haven't picked up my bible since. I am so tired of hearing I am Job and everything I have been through since birth is a testimony... Ya to who? I talk to God I just won't feed on his word and feel he just let go of me an Satan has taken hold, I am requesting prayer to find my way back. Thank you