Prayer Request
Please pray that God will help me trust Him more. I put my trust in the wrong people and I can't tell who I can trust. I'm used to trying to manage on my own so it would be a huge step of faith for me. I know that is what God wants but I'm terrified of getting hurt. I've struggled with depression for 20 years now and I haven't gotten an answer as to why I got it, what I did to deserve it (I got diagnosed at 12), and why He won't take it away from me. I say all the time I could do so much if He just took it away but no matter what I do, He won't answer me. (Or I can't hear Him.) I read the Bible but had to stop. I was frustrated that His promises were so fantastic yet I never experienced any of them. I don't know how someone's joy can be made complete.. The new testament is words to me. I've read it. I know there is more. I can't understand it more than words. I get frustrated because I feel nothing and I really understand nothing besides the surface stories. I know there is more but I can't get to it.
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You did not do anything to deserve depression and you do not deserve it. You deserve to be happy. The mind is powerful- if we think sad thoughts we can make ourselves cry. The brain does not know these thoughts are not fact. Try to think happy thoughts, good things if you can. It’s so hard to do when you are depressed - smile at the sunshine and the trees and walk or exercise if you can. Read a book and forget this world if you can and give yourself a rest from reality if it is too hard to bear. Praying God sends you your guardian Angel to help you rise up soon. Please remember that you are worth all the effort. People do care about you and so does God. 💕
Even Jesus struggled with depression Flossy, try to excersize and see yourself as Gods child practice daily happy thoughts until they start to take hold.
Jump rope, eat healthy smile and mentor another when you can .