Good day prayer warriors. 🙏
Now I have been a single mother for over 26months now. I tried so many times to make it work with the baby's father. I tried so hard I'm having a 2nd baby due in October. I'm so blessed but was really worried at first if this baby will be alive and healthy when she arrives. As I had bad morning sickness up until just recently. Also about doing it alone, the only person I have and trust to watch my boy is my mother. So I will be having the baby alone. The dad "tries" to come around or call. But is filled with so much excuses he's almost useless. I don't like putting him or others down but idk how else to out it. Ever since he started the drugs (meth) he's just not in a good state of mind and has been on the streets for the most part since I kicked him out for bringing his drugs in my home 2yrs ago when Baby was only months old. I haven't been looking for love since I'm expecting again. But I think it found me. This man and I have always had a thing for each other. The timing has never been right, even now I feel silly but also feeling I need love and companionship who doesn't right. He's a very nice man with very strong feelings for me. More than I even realized. He's opened up to me and tells me how he has cancer and doesn't want to do chemo. So I pray that Father God Creator of all things will heal him and let him live so we can have a lifetime together. Even if it doesn't work out that way he is a good man and pray for the best. I'm afraid to love again because how much pain I been through in the name of love. I won't hide my feelings I'll just go with it and that's what he's doing just going with it feeling healthier since he left his gf and is visiting family and his kids. Still making sure to keep in touch with me. Please Jesus have mercy on him so maybe he can be the father my kids need if that's what he wants. I trust in you creator 🙏🙏🙏 I give my all to live my life in kindness acceptance of others to be the role model I need to for my kids and my people. I also pray for my babies father to find a way through you to get where he needs to in life and not be crushed about me loving another man because we all deserve love and he needs to understand I can't keep putting up w his excuses gaslighting narcissistic ways. I need to be happy and he needs help, more than any human can give he's got to help himself.
I believe and trust in you dear God 🙏 Creator of all good things. Please answer my prayers for healing of ALL those that need to be healed after all the first people's children of turtle Island being recovered. This world needs you and your love more than ever. Stand with our people dear God. Amen