Praying over you. I am so sorry for your loss! Remember, you still have your Lovin old son, and he needs you more than anything at this point. I understand where you’re at, but ask God to give you strength to raise your son properly. After my mother and baby brother died within six weeks of each other I was left shattered. My pastor kept showing up at different places where I was. He asked me if he can cancel me and he did so him and his wife Every Thursday. God’s strength is shown in our weakness. Take a deep breath and give it all to God for he is waiting for you.