I am standing with you in prayer, Katie. God loves you. He hears your prayers, and sees your heart. Stay strong and faithful. Look up a poem/quote originally by Dr. Kent Keith called the "Paradoxical Commandments" (also known as "Do It Anyway" by Mother Teresa). I have it up on my wall and look at it daily. May God bless you (and yours).

People are illogical, unreasonable, and self-centered. Love them anyway.
If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives. Do good anyway.
If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies. Succeed anyway.
The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.
Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable. Be honest and frank anyway.
The biggest men and women with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest men and women with the smallest minds. Think big anyway.
People favor underdogs but follow only top dogs. Fight for a few underdogs anyway.
What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight. Build anyway.
People really need help but may attack you if you do help them. Help people anyway.
Give the world the best you have and you'll get kicked in the teeth. Give the world the best you have anyway.

IN JESUS NAME! 🙏