My Dearest papa God July has been so hard for me two surgeries and both back to back I can’t do this alone I, me the sinner needs you so much I can’t do this I really want to be dead I see what my mom went through with that unforgivable cancer this pain Jesus help me heal remove every side effect are happening due to these surgeries I can’t do this alone.. ma I miss you so much I feel your pain which was worst then mine now I understand why you was preferring to die.. Papa God I have no one I only really have you help me please💔😢