I just want to take a minute to give thanks to an amazing God that despite my transgressions over the past few years He still has mercy for me, He still reaches out to me, He is patient with me. I have been so afraid to take action, for fear of discomfort. Running towards pleasure and comfort and seeking after approval. Even after an intimate relationship with Him, after seeing his hand, and many prayers answered, being granted peeks behind the curtain, truths people spend a life time trying to understand. I still found room to doubt and rebel and go my own way and take matters into my own hands. Knowing where it lead. By any human measure I'm dead to rights disqualified to proceed forward. By my own standards I belive I couldn't muster a fraction of such grace and mercy. Knowing how bad it hurts when people treat me that way and how much worse I've forsaken Him.through My pride and arrogance and self righteousness, knowimg right and doing wrong He still Loves me. That's the the kind of God we serve. I remember many days thinking that's it hell never take me back now, and I've gone to far. But he never left. All praise be to the most.High God and Christ Yeshua.