I've struggled to understand (and accept) why God closed the door on a serious, significant relationship in my life, and the effects it's had since.. and I'm ashamed how deeply this has affected me. God, I apologize for my pride, weakness, and the mistakes I've made. I apologize for clinging so tightly and holding on too long. I prayed, I tried. I loved - as much (and as hard) as I knew how, and it still wasn't enough. For years, I wholeheartedly believed this man was my answered prayer; sent (and approved) by God to love (and be loved). After being discarded and rejected, I've allowed the abandonment and feelings of failure to consume, isolate and overwhelm me into a prolonged state of debilitating depression. God, please help me navigate through this darkness. Help bring peace to this pain, and healing to the wounds. I don't want to live defeated, but my heart is hurting and empty. I need You, Lord now more than ever. Amen.