My husband of 30 years left me earlier this year for another person who is an apostate. He/she (I say it this way because no one knows if this is a man dressed as a woman or a woman) drew him away from me with her lies while using God's Word to do so while I was literally dying from a severe illness. I had been recovering physically when he blindsided me with wanting a divorce. God did not allow the divorce to go through - he literally blocked it from happening, which is a blessing in itself. This is my first holiday season with out him, and I am very sad and depressed. I am trying to not live in pity, but it's so hard. I don't understand what the reason for this time of testing and trusting has come just now, but I am working on giving everything to God. Please pray for me that I can make it through this time with grace and dignity. I feel like hurting him as he has hurt me, but that is wrong. I feel so conflicted. It feels like he has just thrown me and our kids and life away for this deceiver with no consequences - so I ask for prayer for him, Matthew, as well that God's will may be done in his life. Thank you to those in Christ who will pray for me. - Joy