I pray that my daughters realize that I do love them and want to see them and that even though the last couple years for me have been tough I love them very much and it's killing me not to get to talk to them. Moms aren't always strong and sometimes we don't do a good job of coping with things especially when we spent a lifetime suppressing bad emotions and being conditioned to suck it up and shut down. That's really hard to turn off. :(