Flossy~~
I feel for you. Pleae DON'T let the father of lies convince you there's no hope.!
Keremiah 29:11" For I know the plans and thoughts that I have for you,’ says the Lord, ‘plans for peace and well-being and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope."
I just read something tonight, going thru old notes. that said :
"Hearing overturns the lie of hopelessness! Realizing there are options (you haven't yet found) overturn the confinement of hopelessness
(Citing Galatians 6: 9) Persistently doing what you know is right overcomes the paralysis of hopelessness"
(Psalm 100:4) Praise overturns the attitude of hopelessness".

Its satan who seeks to steal, kill, destroy. It is Christ Who came to give you LIFE & that abundantly!