I thank You Lord for giving me this life and marriage along with our 2 kids. Today, I am asking for your prayers. I’ve been battling depression for 8yrs now since I have felt that my husband cheated on me. Nothing was admitted by him but I had many evidences that he had always ignored and laughed about. He even accused me of being crazy for accusing him having an affair. It tore me apart and really broke my heart. My dreams of having a good future with fell apart. My physical being also diminished. I suffered hypertension, psoriasis,insomnia, anemia, anxiety & bouts of emotions from all the stress that this issue has brought me. My own family knew nothing at all. I did not want them to know as I wanted to retain the respect that they have for him. I let his family know abt it but nothing happened. Nothing was proven but I always had a very strong gut feeling that there was somebody else. From then on, the intimacy was lost, I couldn’t feel any respect from him anymore. I felt treated like a nobody & insignificant. I felt really small and torn apart. Not even my friends would believe me. I really hated myself that up to now, I am still living with him & even if we migrated away from that place, trying so hard keeping this family intact for the sake of our kids. I feel so dumb and stupid that I am letting things pass without clearance to what happened and just giving him all the benefit of the doubt not considering myself anymore, forgetting my self respect of letting him treat me this way. I can no longer trust him yet nomatter what I still can’t let go. Whenever we are out, he still treats me with the disrespect of looking to other women passing by even I am around. I feel to ugly and unwanted. I hate this feeling of insecurity that he always gives me..I just want to feel whole again, and wanted to think there is still hope for this marriage. I am praying that one day, he will come to me and admit whatever wrong he has done so that we could put a closure on the past and both move on for the sake of the family. I am praying that he would give me the respect, honesty and love as his wife. I pray that he will start to realize what is lost between us and be faithful onwards so that I could learn to put trust back again. Please help me pray.