I need God in my life. I have walked away from him. Not wanting to believe and be dissapointed. I’m messed up. I suffer from
Agoraphobia and panic and generalized anxiety and depression. I’m having a rough time right now. I need to go to doctors this week. I’m scared of being so nervous I won’t be able to go. I’m afraid of going and panicking. I hate being like this. Please help me. I’m alone.

I am asking that somehow...somewhere...sometime soon....I learn to trust and believe in God. I lost my mom and dad...and I feel so alone. I am afraid of everything. I work..and that is by hanging on by a thread. I live by myself. I am afraid of the future. I don't do things because of my panic.
I am afraid because I have off in December for two weeks. It is so far away, but I am already anticipating panic and anxiety (as I have had for years). I want to cry all of the time. I don't enjoy things. I am scared.
Is there a God? Please help me to turn things over to him.