I need prayers. I need clarity and God knows what I'm talking about and what I need. I need him more than ever

Please pray for me to see Gods purpose more clearly. I know they say everything happens for a reason and I want to beleive that. I am starting to lose faith after my sister past away right after Christmas. Most of my family are all deceased and I am only 29. All I have is my mom, my husband, and my kids. And to be honest, he has cheated in the past and has not been good to me and it is because of him thjat my family and I were not talking @ what was my sisters last Christmas.