I have no love. Not that i cannot love. I have more love to give than thought possible by a younger version of me. I have no love as in no love to have. My parents love a version of me that they think i should be, which leaves only disappointment. No woman loved me like i loved them since they left for one reason or another, I, in fact, requested a prayer the last time i was here only so that i wouldn't lose the little bit of love i had, Not that it did any good. No friend loved me like they should because, well, they are self absorbed assholes.

I might sound funny now but i do feel it keenly. The sting of being unnecessary. I mean I could've lived a life for myself but that's not who I am. My need to love and be loved goes unanswered. Comes to be in my life as questionable life choices and self destructive tendencies. I don't want that. Not any more. If God is love and love is God. Please. Pray that I find my God. Because seriously. Life isn't worth living without him in it. It absolutely isn't.

I only wish to move forward with life, leave behind all he heartache of the past so I can make a living and a name for myself and my family...I want my faith back. Please pray for me, I want to believe in myself, in God and in God's love again. Pain and memories of the past make it hard...

I prayed tirelessly for day and night when my beloved was being forced to marry according to the wishes of her family. No help came...after a year of trauma and psychiatric help along with emotional support from my friends and family i regained my senses if not completely. a few days ago i saw her in a picture with her husband ever so beautiful and seemingly happy...i am spiraling again. why is God doing this to me...what does God have in mind? i keep praying even though i swore never to pray again because it is something i cannot live without. But my mind seeks answers...and so far i only have more riddles, more pain...please pray for me to find some answers...or at least to stop being such a nexus of suffering to those who really love me...

I loved a girl with all my heart. Her family was against love marriage. we couldn't win them over with all our tries. She broke up with me. years ago God promised her in a dream that he will aid her in our dream to marry each other.And today,a rigid caste system, fate, society and even our beloved families stand against us. I know she still loves me, but she's being forced to quit her graduation and marry the guy her parents chose by January this year, as is customary in my country. But i know my life can never be the same without her. The astrologers have spoken and they don't think we can ever have a life together. But i seek faith and invoke God's help. Please pray for me... i cannot lose her.

please god, grant me good health again. strengthen my body, raise my spirit and grant a little more sharpness to my mind. challenges of life you have granted me await me. i request you to grant me the strength, skill and courage to face them again. for i rely on you always. amen.

I thank you God...For fulfilling the dreams of my childhood, that lingered in my heart for so long.