I will send a prayer to you and your community... We have amazing talents and gifts once we realize how G-D wants to use us.... Remember, we didn't call G-D, He called us... It's up to us to answer his call, he will always answer ours... You must not just say it with your words but also your actions... I pray for you and your family's forgiveness for past thinking and past ways and ask for a renewal and a revival in your family and abundances of growth... Have grace and have faith your prayers will happen... Research something called the Quantum wave function collapse ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!! Amen