I am joining those below in praying over your situation. It's so hard to trust in God or to have faith in God when you don't yet know Him. I bear testimony that His love and concern for each one of us is genuine and that He knows what you and your family are going through and hears you as you cry out. Look for His presence in unexpected signs. Listen for His love for you all through the deeds and words of those He sends. Feel his presence with you through the movement of the spirit. Many will be praying on your behalf.