I’m still struggling with my son’s suicide
I was doing so good, so proud of how hard I worked on my faith and I was able to feel some peace for the first time in 9 years
I’m saddened at this moment bc the struggling circle has hit me again, I full of fear and I struggle with every day life, I pray for help and strength with my issues an mental state that takes over and is so overwhelming that I can’t do anything but sit in my bedroom and I ask God to please make it stop and I at least can function somewhat on a daily basis.

First I want to Thank everyone for your prayers, it’s now 8 years since my son’s suicide, I still struggle at times was hospitalized many many times, but I do know in my heart that my son is finally at peace. He suffered with Mental Illness for years ( always 31 ) and to watch him suffer no matter how many’s of doctors or specialist who deals with the condition my son suffered from. I have to express being Catholic that taking your own life is a sin, but I know first hand that God see’s pain and I say this, because the night my son hung himself with a belt around his neck I tried, an tried to cut him down and I failed, as I tried the last time b4 calling ambulance I fell back and I have to share this, as I fell and I looked at my son I will never ever forget the most beautiful halo of gold around him and I knew at that moment that God knew my sons pain was excruciating and at that moment the halo kept getting brighter, as I ran up the steps to get my cell phone to call ambulance and I ran back to my son the Golden Halo was so bright it was shining out of the laundry room where he took his life, I was catatonic for many months but I knew in my broken heart till this very day, God knows God forgives.