I felt the same way but when i wake up and hear the birds chirping & see the sun i pray and talk to God and ask him please take me by the hand & show me the way i get a little tug at my heart & i believe God is letting me know he is with me so the last few days things seems to get a little better.We all our lack of money & God bless my Nephew he told me to move in with him & his family & i did but i am still in a financial bind but as long God is with me i don't worry as much because i know iwhen i go home i don't take my problems with me.You have 2 children who needs you more than ever look at your children when they are playing & laughing then you will see how happy they are to have you as a parent.God will send the right person to you just wait & take care of yourself & children first.I will be praying for you.God bless you & your family.