I need prayers for my wife and I . I have hurt her deeply over the years by not putting my wife first and so many other things , my wife feels I never loved her and while I did many things to try and show her they were over shadowed by things I did wrong so she felt is he really doing these things because he loves me or is it because he has done something wrong and trying to trick me. I love my wife with all my heart, she is a wonderful person and she is by far the best thing that ever happened to me . I want to save my marriage and I want forever with her . I want to grow old with her . I have been married to her for 30 years we have 2 grown children and a beautiful grandson . My wife and I both have told each other we love the other very much and always will. I don't want my marriage to end I want forever with this beautiful woman . I want to put her first in my life and take care of her when we are old . I want to show her I love her and that she is the most important person in my life. I pray and cry to god every day and off and on during the day . I cant sleep at night because I feel I disappointed god and my family . I have sinned and asked and begged for forgiveness. But I have repeated the same sins. I feel broken and alone and I just want to fix my wife and my marriage . I try to read the bible but I just don't understand how it is written and I don't understand a lot of the words in it. I ask to please pray for me to not sin. for me to always see my wife in gods eyes , I ask for a lifetime with my wife so I can show her everyday I love her and want her and need her in my life . Thank you all for your prayers I guess to keep it simple pray for me to keep my wife and for me to never hurt her again and for her to forgive me and be able to trust me . ( I never hurt her physically ) but by not putting her first and making her feel she wasn't good enough by putting friends and others before her and I did cheat on her in a poor state of mind it don't make it right . I just wanted to be honest about that I wouldn't want people to pray to save my marriage for me to keep hurting her. I love her and just want to spend my life with her growing old together and enjoying our family together. Thank you all for this I hope that in time I can earn my wifes trust. My name is Ed and I'm from Cicero , NY Thank you all for this and my god hear your prayers not just for me but for all my brothers and sisters around the world . May God bless you all . Thank you all so much this means everything to me and for my family.