I need prayers to live a happy and fulfilling life. time after time i have hurt and betrayed those i love as a result of neglect from my family. i had found somebody who loved me for the first time in my life and did everything to make me happy and feel deserved and after a year i just acted carelessly, and broke his trust and lost him. i would do anything to get him back and love him right. i want to be capable of loving and being loved.