I am not good at this, but here it goes. I pray and ask for prayers from all of you for help to change my sinning ways. I pray that god does not look at me any different. I believe he exists, I believe jesus died on the cross for mine and everyone elses sins as well. I make mistakes, mistakes that keep being done over and over again. i am trying to stop being that bad image in god and the lords eyes. i am trying to change to be a better person. It is not as easy as I thought. So far i like where I am at, living with my family once again and now have a girl i want to be with for the rest of my life. I dont want to mess that up. But I am doin things that could. I guess I am askin for your prayers that I change my evil sinning ways and accept what I have now. I want to change and be a better person for myself, my life.I keep goin back to being that bad person but I dont want to be that person anymore. I pray I get a job here as well since i made the choice to move back here. times is hard but i ask for a miracle. thats what i am prayin for.. a miracle. God knows what I want, who i want to be. its just hard. I keep making the same mistakes. I just pray everything works out because this is what i want, my family, my own place, my lady im with now, i want god in my life and jesus again, i want a job, but i know god doesnt give things out like that. Im just lettin him and everyone know im tryin to change. and ask for your prayers to help me get through this change and better my life. For him to forgive me for my sins, my mistakes i make, forgive me for being lost lord. But please dont look at me any diffrent then you look at the people that praise you just because my sins. thank you everyone for taking the time to read and pray. and thank you lord jesus and god for hearing me out. Amen

Right now is very hard times for me, No job, no car, no money, hardly any family helping me out other than my sisters. Mom and dad aint there to help even though they know all this, my ex girlfriend broke up with me before christmas and ive been with her for a year and four months, now to her its nothin and she can careless, shes happy shes without me and laughs about it. It Seems like im alone and nobody cares. I just dont like the way my life is and im hoping for the best out of all this. I hear everything happens for a reason so im hopin a very good reason comes out of this. I let GOD down with alot of things i have said or done that would make him himself look down on me in disappointment. Alot of times i felt like giving up but thats not the answer. So i look up to GOD and everyones prayers to help me get out of this hell im in.