for understanding that all things happen for a reason maybe not the reason i would like but the reason god thinks it needs to happen. i need to let go of the things i cant change and appreciate the things i have. lately i have been over thinking and i have become so depressed im not sure how to accept the fact that my best friend my heart is gone forever im so angry at this point in life i have 3 beautiful children and a man who loves me a job a aparment my life seems to be so full of things i would want but im not happy. i cant seem to allow my self to be loved by this man who loves me so much because i cant get over my ex my best friend the man god took to heaven. i cry every night and as the days pass my pain grows deeper. i just want to be at peace with the past at understanding that god does everything for a reason. i just want to be happy.